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Sunday, May 31, 2009

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Eric Ethan

This man is some magical blessed creation of music.

Kurt Cobain mixed with a younger version of Bob Dylan.

Check out his's hauntingly, eerily, honestly Beautiful.


And he sings that great straight up without any fancy schmancy techno computer bs. Simple honest pure music, it's such a rarity.

My Fav is "When The Bottom Drops Away"

and "Vine Street Melody" is HAUNTING

Man I loooove living in Hollywood!!!!! Surrounded amongst such brilliant Artists!!! What a blessed day. What a blessed life.

Saturday, May 23, 2009


I am back from Mexico. Amazing time.

The message for today is:


From a song a friend shared with me.

I don't believe in "god" and "jesus" the way he does....

But I appreciate and understand the beauty of this message and the conviction of his faith.

The song is called "Tear down the walls"

(one of the most beautiful harmonious pieces of music I've heard in a while. Gets me high.)

Tear down the walls.
See the world.
Is there something we have missed?
Turn from ourselves.
Look beyond.
There is so much more than this.

And I don’t need to see it to believe it.
I don’t need to see it to believe.
Cause I can’t shake this fire deep inside my heart.

Look to the skies.
Hope arise.
See His majesty revealed.
More than this life.
There is love.
There is hope and this is real.

And I don’t need to see it to believe it.
I don’t need to see it to believe.
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning deep inside my heart.

This life is Yours.
Hope is rising as Your glory floods our hearts.
Let Love tear down these walls.
That all creation would come back to You.
It’s all for you.

Your Name is glorious, glorious.
Your Love is changing us, calling us.
To worship in spirit and in truth.
As all creation returns to You.

Oh or all Your sons and daughters.
Who are walking in the darkness.
You are calling us to lead them back to You.
We will see Your spirit rising.
As the lost come out of hiding.
Every heart will see this hope we have in You.

For Your Name is glorious, glorious.
Your Love is changing us, calling us.
To worship in spirit and in truth.
As all creation returns to You.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

I will be in Mexico May 18-22

haha don't worry I won't get swine flu.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Got....Mein Komedy Magazine?

Image by Diana Hliva ( Concept/idea of Ozzy (Austin Bunton).

Model>yours truly . lol.

See which finalized version will make the final cut in our new mag when we launch our first issue!!!

what can I's 4 am...and I pantzzz

ok I am seriously in love. these chix are soooo hot. they actually have brains. chix with brains-such a rare thing in LA. wit....flavour...comedy....DLFAJDSLKJF!!! i am in looooovee.....they're both amazing....but I love the naughty one-the one in the yellow.....a younger version of Angelina Jolie....oh man....they're both just sooo....I mean the main one is Fiiiierce and just cute and sexy and meooorrwwwl and the other one is makes me want to do evil things with her.....i want em' in my living room now!!!! and then in my least can we be pals like on sex and the city???!!!! lol

Monday, May 11, 2009

and the weirdest thing is ....however this sounds like i feel.....i just had the most beautiful wonderful probably won't get it....or me

i feel really used, fucked up, and betrayed

i have so much to give, and nobody brave enough to accept it

everyone is shit scared
everyone is insecure

i am the world

i can give you the world
crazy thing is you don't even want it

every person i give my heart to i am crushed by

everytime i release my soul it is stepped on

i am kind of half asleep half dead

why and how did this world get so fucked up

why does everybody lie

why is daily life so awful

why is it that under every element of raw beauty there is always some hidden agenda of pain

why is it that i feel i'm in love wiht every new person i meet, and how stupid i feel that they don't fall in love with me back right away

why is it that i fuckin love everyone and feel one with them

and most are too terrified to look me in the eye

why do people think i'm beautiful now who used to call me ugly

why and how the fuck did i become a model

why are guys intimidated by my looks

why do they think that because of them i would be a jackass or an alien

why am i such an idiot

why do i love my parents so much

why do they love me

why do i love them so much and yet am met, in the worst type of way, always with their disaproval

why do i constantly feel like a shining light in a world that wants to kill it

why do i have so much fuckin love inside me

and why does the world consider that weak

why is innocence considered stupid

why is my kiss too intense for your taste

why do i see your soul when i fuck you

why do your eyes look quiet but i hear their screams

why can i pierce you apart and know just who you are see right the fuck thru you

and why is the one who i thought would never,

desert and leave me wounded

why do i want you

why do i want to delve into your soul

and bite your skin

why do i want and why do i hunger

when i am fucked over......

again and again

Thursday, May 07, 2009

A Message from Our Magazine: Mein Komedy Magazine



Want MORE?

We launch our 1st Official Issue July 1, 2009.


Everything Happens For A Reason......

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
guidance and support,

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be..

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009




Break Free From The Hype

"There's something wrong with the world.

You don't know what it is...but you feel it....You've felt it all your life." -Morpheus to Neo, The Matrix


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The truth about the inner reality of the Military, about Hollywood, about the Media, about America,

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We're giving you a choice. Take the red pill to exit the Matrix of lies you've been brainwashed into believing.

Or keep ignorant and stay uneducated about what's going on. The choice is yours.

The only question is.....





Saturday, May 02, 2009

My new pet mouse Achilles Einstein Socrates (the great)

this is Achilles!!! =0))))))

this is the magical tea box I put him in when we watch movies together. right now we're watching twilight.

he likes it, but I think he liked "much ado about nothing"-shakespeare better. the colors were brighter and seemed to capture his attention for longer periods of time.




and again, WOW

Friday, May 01, 2009

the uh....what I posted on and other dating sites lololol

NOTE* My boyfriend and I broke up (filmmaker/futboller-that's Soccer) from a very serious, incredibly deep, complicated, intense, obsessive, this-is-everything, crazy love, romeo & juliet meets silence of the lambs...5 year relationship in March. I don't want to get into the details. Anyway due to thus, I'm healing, pretty closed off emotionally and not looking for anything serious.

For some reason...(something of the soul...mind...heart...) this seems necessary to say. This is me. This is what I am. Classify it, hate it, love it, whatever. I am honest, straight-forward and prefer to just show you what I am upfront so you know. I'm insane, I'm fun, I'm deep, I'm a doofus, I'm a whole list of words and stereotypes and generalizations but none of them truly matter because I am just ....ME. I won't change for anyone Directly-though life itself is continual change. Please don't try to impress me because I'm not trying to impress you. I grew up as a child prod/teased nerd/dork, somehow I am now a model. This whole flattery business is always hilarious to me, and every time it happens I kind of-lol-feel a "muwhwhhahahahahhahaaa!!!" feeling at all the mean, ignorant kids who made fun of me. I think men (and women) assume that if you are what they consider externally means that you're somehow immune to all the pain and torture it is just to be alive. I take pride in my appearance, I take pride in my brain, I take pride in my achievements and accomplishments. I take pride in all that, because it is my victory in the "real world", a world which I find RIDICULOUS. The fact that I have gained "Success" in this "real world", is what I am proud of. Not so much the actual achievements, but the mere output of energy I had to put out to acquire it (naturally being an isolated Hermit).....I hope you realize that this all...All of it....your "job" "goals" "reality" "car" "house" "image" "stuff" "achievement" is an external game play. You were born naked, with none of that, save your parent's love. THAT is who you are at base, that is how I see you thru my eyes, and how I see myself. As adulthood happens, people put on their masks and their games and build borders to protect themselves. I'm really looking for people that can put aside the facade and can laugh like they did when they were in 4th grade. Those who are more interested in what kind of unicorns they/I like rather than the numbers and statistics that quantify us in the "real world". Who and what are you when you stand in front of an ocean? What do you feel when you see the hardship of the third world? Who painted the sky blue? Why are you alive? What the heck is this place called a universe and what is the purpose of all of the life forms within it? What IIIS this???? what intrigues me truly...and anything and anyone which comes close to this big deep ultimate interest/question captures my heart. I'm something supernatural...I'm something rare....I'm something not quite-explainable. No that is not being Full of Myself...that is me Knowing myself.....based on both my objective analysis and the quantifiable terms of measurement from other objective observers....this is the scientific truth. I'm a contradiction, I'm a whatever. This is me. Take it or leave it.