of Cars and Jedi

"There's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but you Feel it. Like a splinter in your mind...driving you mad. It is this feeling which has brought you to me."

-what Morpheus says to Neo.


THAT is the exact opposite of what any systemic expert will tell you. You may say that you are depressed, you may even explain what specifically it is that depresses you, but it is glided over. The Feeling, that there is Something Wrong, with All of this. Means just that> All of this. At the Core of it all. Patching it up with band-aids and self-help chants that have been over-used century after century will not Fix that Feeling. But nobody knows how to fix the core, so of course, everyone tries to wax a broken car and paint it and make it smell lovely and try to pretend that it isn't broken. And if you insist that the car is broken, you're a pessimistic lunatic.

Why I have always said that "psychological illness" is the gateway towards freedom is because it is in these abrupt interruptions from the duty that you are supposed to fill out as a functional homo sapien robot that you can clearly see that the car is broken. The car being the world, the people living in it, every aspect of life around you and life itself.

as to how to Fix the car, at the core, that remains the challenge.
where to go to get that answer has to do with deciphering which source is best to derive it from> which jumps to what is Good, what is Evil, which to be of, and which will ultimately win?


"good" "evil", of course these terms are relative...but there has and currently very much is an active battle going on Everywhere as to firstly What is Good, What is Evil, and secondly, which will win?

in star wars language, good would be the jedi. the jedi does For Others.

evil would be the sith. the sith does For Self.

however both of these definitions I think are flawed.

as if there Was an ultimate good (assuming that Good is the best way to go-which I'm always in conflict about anyway), Good would be Both For Self AND For Others, as there is no rescuing Others, without first rescuing Self. and sometimes, or all the times, rescuing Self is the First and the Hardest battle which may take the Most time. and could therefore be construed as Selfish-to put all focus on Self. but the ultimate Mission is to Use the Self, to Rescue> Others. though during Self Rescue-this is never interpreted nor seen by anyone else other than the self, irritatingly and sadly.


in order to fix the Car, you have to fix the wheels, you have to fix the gears, you have to fix the windows, the locks, the engine, the whole damn thing.

by the time you're done it may look nothing like a car. it may look like a horse. or a tornado.


the solution isn't in fixing to run as it did before it was broken. but to make sure to fix it in such a way that it will never even be a possibility for it to break, period.


no economic ups and downs. no world starvation, hunger, famine then followed by mass euphoric celebration of "helping hands". no false happinesses that only go up and down but are never steady.


what would Evil then be?

Not doing anything for self or for others by way of Ignorance. Evil would be ignoring that the car is broken at all and continuing to act as if everything is hunky dory. An illusion. Evil would also be trying to gain others as vessels to use for your own purposes.


the point however is, in terms of Good and Evil...is that whether that initial Feeling that there is something Wrong with the world...is Good...or Evil.


when Anakin initially fell to the Emperor, and bowed down to him in search of the truths and tools of the underbelly force, the main reason was to train how to use the Force to save his love-Padme. Yet the further this wrong path went, the further away Padme became and in the end she died. But by that time Anakin was already Darth Vader.

All else being equal in terms of magnanimous powers attainable, the Light Force and Dark Force, the difference is in the concept of which one is Good, or Evil, and which is better to be of. Anakin was Supposed to join the galaxies, save the universe, "destroy the sith , not join them". But he joined them due to his own weakness-attachment, and wanting to unnaturally extend the cycles of life and death. Though he was doing this for Another, the Self was at the center of it, and it is thru the Self that he was mind-controlled, manipulated, and fallen. He was Supposed to be The One, but it was his son Luke who ended up being the one-because of his lack of Ego. The Jedi never required any worship in order to learn, and encouraged individual growth thru rigorous discipline and adherence to principles. The Sith are the opposite.

"The bird struggles out of the egg. The egg is the world. Whoever wants to be born, must first destroy a world. The bird flies to God. That God's name is Abraxas."
— Hermann Hesse

At the time, you always think you're doing what's best, what's right for the internal truths within yourself. What's crucial to catch is the moment of whether you'll become Lord Vader, or Luke Skywalker, and how to see the forces around you for what they truly are.


Which is ignorant of what? Is it ignorant of truth to say that the car is broken and is a horrible trap, a continuating cycle of genetic torture? Or is it ignorant of truth to say that the car isn't permanently broken, just glitchy, and is a beautiful blessing of cyclic responsibility? Which perspective is real, which is false? What is the test?

If the Feeling (and perception) comes from Within the Self, how can one be Sure, of anything...


"If only there were a dogma to believe in. Everything is contradictory, everything is tangential; there are no certainties anywhere. Everything can be interpreted one way and then again interpreted in the opposite sense. The whole of world history can be explained as development and progress and can also be seen as nothing but decadence and meaninglessness. Isn't there any truth? Is there no real and valid doctrine?" Joseph Knect said to his Music Master "there is truth, my boy. But the doctrine you desire, absolute perfect dogma that alone provides wisdom, does not exist. Nor should you long for a perfect doctrine, my friend rather, you should long for perfection in yourself. The deity is within you, not in ideas and books. Truth is lived not taught"
— Hermann Hesse