more than genius

I suppose
there will be
other ways of discovery
for you all
to know who i am
it is so difficult
to not do it all at once
a ridiculous play
of a thespian dancer poet artist
writer singer swimmer philosopher musician humanist traveler lover hater equestrian dreamer and etceteras
such a theatrical drama
would be closer to a circus
is a respectable thing
even in such rings
there are many players
so while i am
all of these
and everything
that i have yet to be
i will not subject
you all
to a horridly confusing scene
in which i play all parts
no.
as hard as it is
this will be my first mark on the world
and you will all instead anticipate what is next








dark
and most foreboding
enchanting
intriguing
my coeche
the immortal
through my veins
blue to onyx
evil in eye
whispers
daring
impulsive
seductive
intellect
of ages
wisdom of soul
wit
i call
from the winds
from all hell
come
rise
to worship me
a slave
in chains
resurrect
desire
for only me
mysterious creature
kiss my hunger gone
nomad
of the underworld
die
and live
to embrace me

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ARMY pants

it is worth the sergeant’s bad breath
and wake-ups at 4 am,
in order to wear
such marvel

i despise
war
and find it offensive that more moolah
is spent on the preparation of a fight
than the meditation
to find the courage
and stop it

but

as long as i
am allowed to be in camouflage
in skin
that withstands all weather,

i will never fade,

and i will disguise

me,

to be comfortable
in army pants.

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in the process of life
exactly what progress
is there

are our trees
varied and green
with or without categorization
and skies not blue
without being royal or navy
does water change its purpose
now that we have identified its components
through
all of your taxonomies
I say
i am an idiot. yes i am
we are all cavemen
with expensive business suits
monkeys
at our own tea party
an I?
oh the glorious I
i, I am just another one of your classifications

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a heated debate

if man
was ocean
woman justly wind
for what wave
becomes a wave
without force
it may still
be man’s world
even after our intelligencies
but should there be no woman
then there would be no competition
and man would have nary a compliment
yet being as man is man
an arguement
would still seek to be won
for although a man is logical
no woman wastes time
on an undefined purpose
although i must admit
in many ways man has been made superior
man will stay calm and
solve problems
while woman deflates hysterics
man is strong
and retains all water
woman
mystifies
and prattles on
shuffling
emotions
in tornado
man made
with greater
advantage
but man is lazy
and woman
may work
grasping man’s talent
yet needed are both
for when man flames
women fires
but there is still
no wave begun
without
the yell of wind behind it

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: America :


an American
will ask
“why am i so hated ?”
and the world
will reply
“what is there to love ?
a country boasting
economy
with poor men
on streets
so rich of an illusion
knowledge is a chore
a spoiled child
may swear at a father
and still live under his roof
so arrogant a people
that talk is loud
when traveling abroad
never think with brains
but with a mouth
selfish
Americans are
when the world respects elders
America builds retirement homes
too bold
for education
philosophers are forgotten
where in the world english is a required thing
foreign language here
is viewed as an option
yes, all should know and respect America
as you have trade expert
and the entertainment world
an American
will butt into business
of a country on her own
an American
requests no polite gestures
but demands
for a bowed reply
what good is love
in America
if it is all a game
of lies
what man
in America
will die for a woman he loves
and what woman
would give up everything
to be there by his side?
oh yes
such rustic
asian thought
and a quaint and
antique European
view of life
but what in
America says pride
besides the
cities’ twinkling lights ?”
and to this
an American
will simply respond
“ well, how else
would you expect us to be?
No other nation
can ever
boast the
guarantee of success
with hard work
our grocery stores
are in fact too plentiful
and we
watch tv
instead of reading books,
but
America is opportunity
and no other
than the land
of dreams.”


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floating
worse than sinking
neverending
this boring oblivion
i stare
at the plateau
of silence
here
with all the fire in me
how have I landed
in this pit
with no bottom
no top
no width
and no volume
i try to grimace
but cannot as it is too severe
i am eating never
with a fork
or a knife
but a spoon
slowly
there is nothing
at all
and there is
all in this nothing
which is what i hate
but have no emotion to hate
because i am in this plateau
wanting extremity
and keep wishing
for an
and

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ego
can overpower love
and hate
can change enemies
to friends
and friends
into killers
has made me proud
and has made me love
and all to resist
to look in the mirror
and see a
face
that has
been weak

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cacoethes scribendi

the dent a
woman leaves
in sand
is seen with my eye.
and thought about,
in attempt to analyze such beauty
using a pen.
i am not the
ursula
of foam,
but a seething
whale
of ideas.

to write,
to sing,
to laugh,
to play,
there are no greater joys!
save one.
to share
your entity
with the world
and the universe preceding.
to be a soul
among all soul
to be a family member
in every family
through words

abraxas

i do not believe in god
i do not dare to hope
hope is a sweet illusion
but an illusion it is

i know
and do not think
that we are all connected by energy
not by skin or any matter which we understand

we are all evil and good
and what we do
individually
inevitably affects the rest

there is no belief
and i cannot explain
how i have security
in a knowledge that is not deemed by any as “secure”

a self acknowleged atheist
still experiences all the things
a priest may
except a title

to understand
what i believe
this belief, that is not a belief but a fact
of enigmatic proportions
is only understood
by the one
who knows
of
and the ones
who have taught me of
the nature of
Abraxas


fuck.
what a word
what power.
i wish people would gasp
at
love.
but no
fuck
is far more interesting
even though
myself included
this population
most of it
has no idea of its
etymological origin
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
duck duck duck
luck
fucked
duck
oh such a dammit
nothing.
i could not convince myself
or any other
that any other word
held the same power
as
a
fuck

G E N I U S

I have a
Picture
In my brain
that would Shame
Any architect’s blueprint. with the schematics of ME,
Simple solution. Right solution
To every quandary
I
Am
Everything!

if only…………………………………………………………………………………….

somebody
could glimpse
at the work
of my
soooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuulllllll
the magnificence and the horror
just imagine
all my thoughts
into action

I am
a
genius
i am
immortal
i am
i am
i am!

i shall make it so.
me shall be
more than me. Me more than what the world sees.
Me more than “should be”

more than “than”.

Just a
>>>>>>> ?genius?