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Thursday, February 19, 2009

Thank You







Just got off a soul-fulfilling phone conversation. Bless this modern age where the people you love are only a phone call away. Remember 100 years ago? That could not happen. My wonderful, wise father said something truly beautiful to me. He said, if you have a few minutes Kiska, every day before bed, think in your mind, give out a prayer, for everything you are grateful for. We must always be grateful for everything, for every minute of life. Regardless if it is the highest happiest euphoria or the deepest, darkest pain. It is a gift to be alive. It is a joy to be living.

Peace and Love to everyone. And my eternal grattitude to my Parents, my Family, Helms, my Friends, and all the amazing people who have been in my life, helped me so much, done so much, and enriched it beyond measure.

You have given me a life of magic. Together, we live a fairy tale.

Regardless of where we go from this point on, whether our paths are as one, or parallely opposite, I cherish the enlightenment and Love which you have given. It has made me who I am today. Without it, without YOU, I would not be here, and I would not be me.

Thank You, Thank You,

THANK YOU.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Liar




You say I am your Princess.
You quothe that I am your Queen.

That I am the Moon, The Sun, and all which lies between.
You say you see me in every River.
That the rain is Mine, and Me.
That there is no rise nor sunset unless you are beside me.

Yet love, where are you now?
When the earth revolves around me in light speed.
When everything is shaking, and I could use the plateau of sanity.

Where were you when I fought the dragons?
Where are you whilst I battle the moats?
Henceforth your "Queen" you underestimated, I am King, Alexander, I Rule.

Oh Love, I gave you all of it.
All the magic they all want.
You had it all inside and around you.
Protecting your innocent heart.

As deeply as you understood it,
Just what gift I bestowed upon you,
All the saving we did of each other,
My Wonderwall....you've killed it now.

Where are you in these hours?
Must I only see you in my dreams?
You break my heart quite daily,
And contradictively state I am your saving grace.

Is this how you treat your martyrs?
Is this how you love your Love?


You've bashed me up and spit me out.
No, I will never let you in again.
You haven't even had the courage to, face my eyes in your sin.
Go! Go travel the mountains.
Fine, go and bring me that blue rose.
None of it will matter.
You've deserted me when I needed you most.

I thought you were my Universe.
I thought we were the Truth.
Now the mirror has erased her illusions.
And I see now, the true you.

You've bashed me up and spit me out.
This who you called your "Queen".
This "Queen" departs from your boyishness.

Now I will stand alone.

This is what I'm here for

I AIN'T YOUR SUPERMAN


I feel like everybody wants something From me. Something Of me. And nobody wants...Me.


Not even talking professionally here. Professionally, I'm a Product. That's my industry. I chose it.

Personally, it's like I'm some candy in a window shop to people. No fuckers. You can't have it. You want the tangy sweetness but you don't see or care about what's underneath. You come on too strong,

YOU'VE GOT ME ALL WRONG.

You think that because I'm nice to you that means I'm "YOURS"? Like I'm a piece of meat? Some fucking trophy for you to show off to your friends? The fucked up thing is that you actually believe that because we hung out, that just automatically means I'm your "girlfriend"??? mother fucker. My heart is so fucking caged it would take a million tigers to claw it free. I'm not here for YOU. I'm not your fuckin' savior, I'm not your "the one". I'm just tryin' to make my goal real. I'm puttin' all I have into this. Here you are trying to suck the living juices out of me like I'm your fuckin' superman. I'm NOT your superman. Can't you get that? CAN'T YOU FUCKERS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

Back off.

And to the ONE of you, that PRETENDED to fuckin' care, for 5 damn years, in the grand words of Avril Lavigne:

"All this time you've been pretending.

SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING."

Good Night all.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Snapshots from Nathalia Gaviria, Miguel Torres & Carolina Fashion Show Feb. 7, 2009, Hollywood, CA
















Designers: Nathalia Gaviria, Miguel Torres & Carolina -Luve u Sweethearts!!!

Photographer/Videographer: Display Mode Media -You Da BOMB
www.displaymode.com

Coreographer: Aldo Star -Love you homie!!!

Models: MEEEE-LILIANA. Dalya-Black girl with elegant face, Joyce-Black girl who is 6'2, Nikko-mixed, 6'6, Nikita-blond Russian female Looong hair, Dynamic-Funky Hair, Saba-black hair Greek, Emma-Blond American-killer abs, Nemo-blond Russian male, D'Angelo-the other black guy w/killer suaveLocation: ANTENNA, Hollywood, LA, CA

I love you my "ridiculously, ridiculously good-looking " peoples!!! We rocked it!!!

















Thursday, February 12, 2009

How I -LILIANA TheAnomalyInfinite Am Different-FACTS

So. The rest explains itself. Breaking down Hollywood for y'all, and just how powerful, and explains WHY I can claim that I am indeed powerful.


Firstly. Let me give you a breakdown about what most aspiring actors/actresses go thru in LA in the first year.

1. They get here. Most, can't afford their own apartment. They get jobs as waiters, waitresses, etc. They have roommates, their living conditions are poor, and they are miserable.

2. They go on countless auditions, for really really, bad parts, usually in television commercials.

3. They do their best to get an agent. Many run into scams, and end up getting agents who are totally useless and don't submit them for anything worthwhile.

4. The smarter ones go to the good agencies. But many, after a year, discover that really good agencies already have a huge talent pool, and don't submit them for things because they already have celebrities among their clientelle.

5. Many who come to LA, after 3-4 months, leave back to wherever they came from. Some, it takes a month. Average time, about 7 months.

6. Those who do stay here for longer, after getting an agency, still usually, after a year or two of being here, have never even been Offered a part in a movie, much less actually be in one.

7. They do get some extra work, do a few independent, no budget films, usually For Free-means no pay, all the while keeping their waiter jobs and living in their tiny studio apartments, usually with a few roommates, and because they can't cook, eating mcdonalds every day. Many at this point get hopeless and start doing the drugs/sex thing.

8. The smarter, focused ones, get some reputation, and join SAG. which takes about 2 grand for membership. SAG is Screen Actor's Guild. This is basically, like, a scholarship/highest level for an actor, a union that was established to make sure that whatever job you get in acting, you Must be paid at least a minimal amount. There are 3 others also which are unions like this: AFTRA, BAFTA, and SEG. So, calculate those totals. about 10 grand, just to JOIN these elitist unions, which don't Guarantee work at all. All they grant you is a "status", and that IF someone hires you, they are forced to pay you. But it's not some big amount. it's like a $30 minimum a day, which I'm sure you know, is actually LESS than if they worked at burger king.

so, by this point, someone has usually been in Hollywood for a few years, and because they have the passion, amidst the nagging they receive from their friends and family, they keep at it. But slowly their soul starts to eat away and they begin to become cynical. And you can tell it immediately in how they talk. It's very negative.

So, there's a lot more steps to all this, but this is just to give you a general idea of what about 95% of aspiring actors go thru in LA.


So. Knowing THAT (and of course I've given you a VERY BASIC outline, it goes waaaay more into depth, if you actually cared to research it, you would know.)

This is how I, LILIANA TheAnomalyInfinite am different, and what My experience has been so far. And this is due to my again, exceptional business skills, networking sense, and general "Liliana-ness". This is not arrogance, this is just FACT.

1. Got to LA. Never had to get a waitress job because I started making money RIGHT AWAY in 4 different jobs that all paid at least $35 an hour, except one for a non-profit, which I quit after 3 weeks anyway. 1 of those jobs is my main income now-massage work, I make more in an hour than most make in a week (I make at least $100 per hour). on top of that, I have modeling gigs and acting gigs.

2. My monthly revenue is appx. at LEAST 4-5 grand. And will probably gross higher. I am saving to buy an apartment/house before age 25. Whatever I don't spend on rent, billls, living expenses or savings, goes directly towards helping my family.

3. I have an Apartment. a 1 bedroom apartment, in the Hollywood area, with every amenity you can imagine. this is UNHEARD of, for a beginning actress, at 22 years of age, with ZERO connections prior to coming here.

4. when I first go to LA (a little over 4 weeks ago), my cell phone contact list was 3 people: my Dad. my Mom. and Helms.
I now, no lie, you can see it for yourself, have 120 PROFESSIONAL, SOLID contacts on my cell. Some of which include Paris Hilton's agent representative, Tila Tequila-a big celebrity here, Clive Davis's front runner (in the entertainment world Clive Davis is like Stephen Wolfram in science).

5. I have a network of FRIENDS-good people, who have genuinely HELPED me of about 30.

6. I am getting a FREE car.

7. I have been offered not just A movie, but the LEAD for 6 movies. It's up to ME what I pick-this is again, UNHEARD OF for a beginning actress in LA. And how I got this is by being NICE to people, being super smart, and networking, networking, networking. FOUR of these films, are STUDIO movies. Which means, big money. HUGE money. And they are ALL in my acting genre, meaning they TYPE of work I want to do.

8. In the beginning I was using subway and bus. Since 2 weeks ago, I don't even leave the apartment without a ride. Every massage job I get, the massage clients pick ME up, and drop ME off. Every modeling gig, I have an escort. I don't even need to use public transport. I still do, just for fun in the past week, but I have enough friends with cars now that until I get my car, I don't even need a car.

9. I have full internet, phone, tv, and a fax machine. Keep in mind a lot of 30 year olds who are here don't even have that.

10. I have already attended TWO PRIVATE, INDUSTRY, STUDIO screening premieres of HUGE films. Slumdog Millionaire and Benjamin Button. This is again, unheard of.

11. I've met Gordon Ramsey, a famous chef. This is rare because most people don't meet any real celebrities until at least their first year has passed.

12. In all my time here, besides a first incident in the first week where I accidentally lost my wallet, I have never been mugged, raped, drugged or any negative experience.

13. Everywhere I go, any day, I get at least 2 business cards from agents, just on the street. And MOST of them check out to be legitimate.

14. I had 7 agencies actually Fighting over who got to sign me on. I'm currently with a personal agent who is putting a lot of attention into me. He's already submitted me for 2 television spots for HUGE shows-ABC'S "Greek", and Fox's "Bones". For any agent, to get a beginning actress, an actual submission into this, usually takes people YEARS. I didn't even have to audition, he just spoke directly to the casting director.

15. I am well dressed. I am well fed. I can cook. I am healthy. This again, very rare.

16. I am a genuinely NICE person. And I am DRUG-FREE.

17. Modeling>I've already modeled in a HIGH FASHION show, and the rest of the models there have been trying to get into a show for months.

18. People are STUNNED with the amount of success I've had, in a ridiculously short amount of time . now of course, all of this, everything is superficial. That is what this industry is. BUT, it is a totally different path so far than the majority experience. And, the people I've made contact with, are SERIOUS, POWERFUL professionals, who know my GOAL is to be an OSCAR actress, and will do their best to help me. No guarantees, but I'm firmly planted here and doing whatever it takes to reach the top.

There is a LOT more. But basically, what I've presented to you are not "illusions". they are FACTS.

And it would do YOU a lot of good to recognize the ability I have. You might feel not only more at ease, but can finally allow yourself to see the star that everybody else is seeing.

No. This is not arrogance. I just know who I am, what I have to offer, and have known it before I even got to LA. everything that has happened has only been physical PROOF of the "psychological philosophy " theory I keep telling you all about. You may not have believed in me, but I have believed in me. I know, at some level, you have always believed in me and have always done your best. But , know that , if it wasn't for my belief in myself, I would not have been able to achieve what I have in this short amount of time. My confidence, combined with a down-to-earth approach, is what professionals Like to see in an actress. Because many actresses here, yes, they are beautiful, but they can't hold a conversation, they are stuck up, and worse, they are not smart, and they lack business sense.

I am immensely grateful for all the help I have received, and continue to receive, and feel blessed and truly humble.

I love every second of my life, and the only thing missing right now is Helms and the full support of my family. I know I am supported, but I don't think you have ANY IDEA of just how well I have navigated LA, and just how well I am keeping my sanity in this crazy land.

This is the girl who only 3 years ago didn't even know the word "business", was starving, ran into a stupid mistake with a con artist and was robbed of 10 grand. Fast forward to now ,managing all of her talents basically AS a self-run business, the CEO of her own company, and talking with CEO's of some very powerful agencies here. And not bashing one eyelid, remaining calm. At 22 years old. and a WOMAN.



by Most actors/actresses, let me be more specific. 95% AT LEAST go thru that sad cycle.

Hollywood is all about the 20 year olds. There are tons who come in, tons who leave.

This is the place that will either make all your dreams come true, or ruin you, if you let it.

The difference with me is that I DO NOT TAKE ANYTHING PERSONAL. I fully get that is is BUSINESS. and when I do a job, I am not Liliana or Lili. I am A PRODUCT.

I am able to seperate the Me, the little buska me , from the CEO, corporate, big lady me, and THAT is what keeps me grounded and sane.

Again, not arrogance, but just letting you know, for a TWENTY TWO year old to be able to do this , especially a WOMAN, especially not even having lived in america for 4 years, is RARE.

And again. What you should look at, continually, in people, is Where They Have Come From and Where They Are Now, and Where They are Going.

Do you remember how Terrified I was of coming to LA?

I was SCARED BEYOND ANY DEFINITION. Fear is not an element that should ever stop anyone. Everyone gets scared. Being Brave and Courageous is about doing things REGARDLESS of how you feel. It is TAKING A DIVE INTO THE UNKNOWN.

I gave up EVERTYHING to come here. And I've never been happier. This is the same girl, who just 6 months ago on a beach in New Zealand, was not sure how she was going to manage in LA or what she would do.

you see, I have always told you, you put it in your mind, and it visualizes into reality. You rarely believe me, but I'm living proof of that theory.

I wanted to come to LA.

It took me some time.

But I'm HERE. I'M LIVING IT.

I thought it, and now it's my reality. Every day when I step out from my apartment and walk on Hollywood boulevard and I look up at the palm trees, it feels like a surreal dream.

I am blessed, and thankful to you, all who have helped, to the universe, and yes, to myself.

I hope you can take some time to think about all this....

And please, I ask, as I respect you all as people, and as professionals, please do me the same honor.

Again, not in arrogance, but I KNOW I have worked hard for it, and I deserve it.

I am what I am. Not here to impress anybody. Not here to put down anybody. Just have huge goals, and am rapidly coming closer and closer to them and achieving a lot along the way. But even if I should fail, it would not be a failure because I've given it my BEST and I enjoy every minute of this grand journey. I am grateful for every minute. Thank You!!!!

PEACE OUT

-LILIANA

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Incredible Art by Amazing Artists



This is Fuel, Hope, Inspiration and Strength for me. As Lucas would say from One Tree Hill to Peyton.... "YOUR ART MATTERS."

Thank you to all of you for being not only Powerful Artists, but Powerful and Great People. Keep doing your thing! Let's rise together.


Artists:
-Antonio Guerrero (cuban surrealism/expressionism)
-Margo Cavis (watercolour surrealism)
-Cienega Soon (digital art-eye)
-William Wilson Studio (digital art-horoscope)
-Travis Haight (digital photographer-masks on nude series)