I AIN'T YOUR SUPERMAN

I feel like everybody wants something From me. Something Of me. And nobody wants...Me.


Not even talking professionally here. Professionally, I'm a Product. That's my industry. I chose it.

Personally, it's like I'm some candy in a window shop to people. No fuckers. You can't have it. You want the tangy sweetness but you don't see or care about what's underneath. You come on too strong,

YOU'VE GOT ME ALL WRONG.

You think that because I'm nice to you that means I'm "YOURS"? Like I'm a piece of meat? Some fucking trophy for you to show off to your friends? The fucked up thing is that you actually believe that because we hung out, that just automatically means I'm your "girlfriend"??? mother fucker. My heart is so fucking caged it would take a million tigers to claw it free. I'm not here for YOU. I'm not your fuckin' savior, I'm not your "the one". I'm just tryin' to make my goal real. I'm puttin' all I have into this. Here you are trying to suck the living juices out of me like I'm your fuckin' superman. I'm NOT your superman. Can't you get that? CAN'T YOU FUCKERS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

Back off.

And to the ONE of you, that PRETENDED to fuckin' care, for 5 damn years, in the grand words of Avril Lavigne:

"All this time you've been pretending.

SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING."

Good Night all.

Snapshots from Nathalia Gaviria, Miguel Torres & Carolina Fashion Show Feb. 7, 2009, Hollywood, CA

Designers: Nathalia Gaviria, Miguel Torres & Carolina -Luve u Sweethearts!!!

Photographer/Videographer: Display Mode Media -You Da BOMB
www.displaymode.com

Coreographer: Aldo Star -Love you homie!!!

Models: MEEEE-LILIANA. Dalya-Black girl with elegant face, Joyce-Black girl who is 6'2, Nikko-mixed, 6'6, Nikita-blond Russian female Looong hair, Dynamic-Funky Hair, Saba-black hair Greek, Emma-Blond American-killer abs, Nemo-blond Russian male, D'Angelo-the other black guy w/killer suaveLocation: ANTENNA, Hollywood, LA, CA

I love you my "ridiculously, ridiculously good-looking " peoples!!! We rocked it!!!

Clubbing blah blah bla bla bla and recent cell phone pix

W. O. W.

How I -LILIANA TheAnomalyInfinite Am Different-FACTS

So. The rest explains itself. Breaking down Hollywood for y'all, and just how powerful, and explains WHY I can claim that I am indeed powerful.


Firstly. Let me give you a breakdown about what most aspiring actors/actresses go thru in LA in the first year.

1. They get here. Most, can't afford their own apartment. They get jobs as waiters, waitresses, etc. They have roommates, their living conditions are poor, and they are miserable.

2. They go on countless auditions, for really really, bad parts, usually in television commercials.

3. They do their best to get an agent. Many run into scams, and end up getting agents who are totally useless and don't submit them for anything worthwhile.

4. The smarter ones go to the good agencies. But many, after a year, discover that really good agencies already have a huge talent pool, and don't submit them for things because they already have celebrities among their clientelle.

5. Many who come to LA, after 3-4 months, leave back to wherever they came from. Some, it takes a month. Average time, about 7 months.

6. Those who do stay here for longer, after getting an agency, still usually, after a year or two of being here, have never even been Offered a part in a movie, much less actually be in one.

7. They do get some extra work, do a few independent, no budget films, usually For Free-means no pay, all the while keeping their waiter jobs and living in their tiny studio apartments, usually with a few roommates, and because they can't cook, eating mcdonalds every day. Many at this point get hopeless and start doing the drugs/sex thing.

8. The smarter, focused ones, get some reputation, and join SAG. which takes about 2 grand for membership. SAG is Screen Actor's Guild. This is basically, like, a scholarship/highest level for an actor, a union that was established to make sure that whatever job you get in acting, you Must be paid at least a minimal amount. There are 3 others also which are unions like this: AFTRA, BAFTA, and SEG. So, calculate those totals. about 10 grand, just to JOIN these elitist unions, which don't Guarantee work at all. All they grant you is a "status", and that IF someone hires you, they are forced to pay you. But it's not some big amount. it's like a $30 minimum a day, which I'm sure you know, is actually LESS than if they worked at burger king.

so, by this point, someone has usually been in Hollywood for a few years, and because they have the passion, amidst the nagging they receive from their friends and family, they keep at it. But slowly their soul starts to eat away and they begin to become cynical. And you can tell it immediately in how they talk. It's very negative.

So, there's a lot more steps to all this, but this is just to give you a general idea of what about 95% of aspiring actors go thru in LA.


So. Knowing THAT (and of course I've given you a VERY BASIC outline, it goes waaaay more into depth, if you actually cared to research it, you would know.)

This is how I, LILIANA TheAnomalyInfinite am different, and what My experience has been so far. And this is due to my again, exceptional business skills, networking sense, and general "Liliana-ness". This is not arrogance, this is just FACT.

1. Got to LA. Never had to get a waitress job because I started making money RIGHT AWAY in 4 different jobs that all paid at least $35 an hour, except one for a non-profit, which I quit after 3 weeks anyway. 1 of those jobs is my main income now-massage work, I make more in an hour than most make in a week (I make at least $100 per hour). on top of that, I have modeling gigs and acting gigs.

2. My monthly revenue is appx. at LEAST 4-5 grand. And will probably gross higher. I am saving to buy an apartment/house before age 25. Whatever I don't spend on rent, billls, living expenses or savings, goes directly towards helping my family.

3. I have an Apartment. a 1 bedroom apartment, in the Hollywood area, with every amenity you can imagine. this is UNHEARD of, for a beginning actress, at 22 years of age, with ZERO connections prior to coming here.

4. when I first go to LA (a little over 4 weeks ago), my cell phone contact list was 3 people: my Dad. my Mom. and Helms.
I now, no lie, you can see it for yourself, have 120 PROFESSIONAL, SOLID contacts on my cell. Some of which include Paris Hilton's agent representative, Tila Tequila-a big celebrity here, Clive Davis's front runner (in the entertainment world Clive Davis is like Stephen Wolfram in science).

5. I have a network of FRIENDS-good people, who have genuinely HELPED me of about 30.

6. I am getting a FREE car.

7. I have been offered not just A movie, but the LEAD for 6 movies. It's up to ME what I pick-this is again, UNHEARD OF for a beginning actress in LA. And how I got this is by being NICE to people, being super smart, and networking, networking, networking. FOUR of these films, are STUDIO movies. Which means, big money. HUGE money. And they are ALL in my acting genre, meaning they TYPE of work I want to do.

8. In the beginning I was using subway and bus. Since 2 weeks ago, I don't even leave the apartment without a ride. Every massage job I get, the massage clients pick ME up, and drop ME off. Every modeling gig, I have an escort. I don't even need to use public transport. I still do, just for fun in the past week, but I have enough friends with cars now that until I get my car, I don't even need a car.

9. I have full internet, phone, tv, and a fax machine. Keep in mind a lot of 30 year olds who are here don't even have that.

10. I have already attended TWO PRIVATE, INDUSTRY, STUDIO screening premieres of HUGE films. Slumdog Millionaire and Benjamin Button. This is again, unheard of.

11. I've met Gordon Ramsey, a famous chef. This is rare because most people don't meet any real celebrities until at least their first year has passed.

12. In all my time here, besides a first incident in the first week where I accidentally lost my wallet, I have never been mugged, raped, drugged or any negative experience.

13. Everywhere I go, any day, I get at least 2 business cards from agents, just on the street. And MOST of them check out to be legitimate.

14. I had 7 agencies actually Fighting over who got to sign me on. I'm currently with a personal agent who is putting a lot of attention into me. He's already submitted me for 2 television spots for HUGE shows-ABC'S "Greek", and Fox's "Bones". For any agent, to get a beginning actress, an actual submission into this, usually takes people YEARS. I didn't even have to audition, he just spoke directly to the casting director.

15. I am well dressed. I am well fed. I can cook. I am healthy. This again, very rare.

16. I am a genuinely NICE person. And I am DRUG-FREE.

17. Modeling>I've already modeled in a HIGH FASHION show, and the rest of the models there have been trying to get into a show for months.

18. People are STUNNED with the amount of success I've had, in a ridiculously short amount of time . now of course, all of this, everything is superficial. That is what this industry is. BUT, it is a totally different path so far than the majority experience. And, the people I've made contact with, are SERIOUS, POWERFUL professionals, who know my GOAL is to be an OSCAR actress, and will do their best to help me. No guarantees, but I'm firmly planted here and doing whatever it takes to reach the top.

There is a LOT more. But basically, what I've presented to you are not "illusions". they are FACTS.

And it would do YOU a lot of good to recognize the ability I have. You might feel not only more at ease, but can finally allow yourself to see the star that everybody else is seeing.

No. This is not arrogance. I just know who I am, what I have to offer, and have known it before I even got to LA. everything that has happened has only been physical PROOF of the "psychological philosophy " theory I keep telling you all about. You may not have believed in me, but I have believed in me. I know, at some level, you have always believed in me and have always done your best. But , know that , if it wasn't for my belief in myself, I would not have been able to achieve what I have in this short amount of time. My confidence, combined with a down-to-earth approach, is what professionals Like to see in an actress. Because many actresses here, yes, they are beautiful, but they can't hold a conversation, they are stuck up, and worse, they are not smart, and they lack business sense.

I am immensely grateful for all the help I have received, and continue to receive, and feel blessed and truly humble.

I love every second of my life, and the only thing missing right now is Helms and the full support of my family. I know I am supported, but I don't think you have ANY IDEA of just how well I have navigated LA, and just how well I am keeping my sanity in this crazy land.

This is the girl who only 3 years ago didn't even know the word "business", was starving, ran into a stupid mistake with a con artist and was robbed of 10 grand. Fast forward to now ,managing all of her talents basically AS a self-run business, the CEO of her own company, and talking with CEO's of some very powerful agencies here. And not bashing one eyelid, remaining calm. At 22 years old. and a WOMAN.



by Most actors/actresses, let me be more specific. 95% AT LEAST go thru that sad cycle.

Hollywood is all about the 20 year olds. There are tons who come in, tons who leave.

This is the place that will either make all your dreams come true, or ruin you, if you let it.

The difference with me is that I DO NOT TAKE ANYTHING PERSONAL. I fully get that is is BUSINESS. and when I do a job, I am not Liliana or Lili. I am A PRODUCT.

I am able to seperate the Me, the little buska me , from the CEO, corporate, big lady me, and THAT is what keeps me grounded and sane.

Again, not arrogance, but just letting you know, for a TWENTY TWO year old to be able to do this , especially a WOMAN, especially not even having lived in america for 4 years, is RARE.

And again. What you should look at, continually, in people, is Where They Have Come From and Where They Are Now, and Where They are Going.

Do you remember how Terrified I was of coming to LA?

I was SCARED BEYOND ANY DEFINITION. Fear is not an element that should ever stop anyone. Everyone gets scared. Being Brave and Courageous is about doing things REGARDLESS of how you feel. It is TAKING A DIVE INTO THE UNKNOWN.

I gave up EVERTYHING to come here. And I've never been happier. This is the same girl, who just 6 months ago on a beach in New Zealand, was not sure how she was going to manage in LA or what she would do.

you see, I have always told you, you put it in your mind, and it visualizes into reality. You rarely believe me, but I'm living proof of that theory.

I wanted to come to LA.

It took me some time.

But I'm HERE. I'M LIVING IT.

I thought it, and now it's my reality. Every day when I step out from my apartment and walk on Hollywood boulevard and I look up at the palm trees, it feels like a surreal dream.

I am blessed, and thankful to you, all who have helped, to the universe, and yes, to myself.

I hope you can take some time to think about all this....

And please, I ask, as I respect you all as people, and as professionals, please do me the same honor.

Again, not in arrogance, but I KNOW I have worked hard for it, and I deserve it.

I am what I am. Not here to impress anybody. Not here to put down anybody. Just have huge goals, and am rapidly coming closer and closer to them and achieving a lot along the way. But even if I should fail, it would not be a failure because I've given it my BEST and I enjoy every minute of this grand journey. I am grateful for every minute. Thank You!!!!

PEACE OUT

-LILIANA

Incredible Art by Amazing Artists

This is Fuel, Hope, Inspiration and Strength for me. As Lucas would say from One Tree Hill to Peyton.... "YOUR ART MATTERS."

Thank you to all of you for being not only Powerful Artists, but Powerful and Great People. Keep doing your thing! Let's rise together.


Artists:
-Antonio Guerrero (cuban surrealism/expressionism)
-Margo Cavis (watercolour surrealism)
-Cienega Soon (digital art-eye)
-William Wilson Studio (digital art-horoscope)
-Travis Haight (digital photographer-masks on nude series)

Live Your Life

I am really amazed and hurt by the lack of support i am getting from my family, and from people in general. Everyone has their own issues. Nobody fucking gets that I am here, on a mission, to fucking change the world. And I have ZERO support from them. No understanding or consideration, only blame and accusations, insults and judgement.

It is pretty lonely at the top.

Because people are jealous. they are jealous and they are mean.

And I think, I feel, I have, and am sacrificing everything, for Hollywood. For my goals.

For my dreams. and it doesn't HAVE to be this way, but that is what everyone is making it out to be. Because I simply do not have time to keep my sanity, and be able to call and text and do all these things for all of these people.

I am rising so fast, so crazy fast, in such a short amount of time, and already have been involved in Amazing things, thanks to the help of some truly incredible people. And I am grateful and blessed. Looking forward to rising higher and higher. At 22...to have accomplished everything I have...no offense but it's unheard of. And that's not arrogance. That's full awareness of who and what I am.

But to the rest of you,

I am thinking of just cutting off people, period. This is the reason with family.

I mean I felt so deep, wanted to connect, wanted to share, want to talk about all the amazing things that I've been involved in, that I've achieved, and none of them are there to listen to me, to support me. Wanted to truly Give, whatever I've been getting. To share and radiate and live in the light with others. But instead of being able to ride along WITH me, when I am successful, people either want something from me, they are mad at me for not spending enough time on them, they get mad at me, or they are jealous.

I have nobody.

When I need it, nobody is there. When THEY need it, and I simply CANNOT be there, then I get accused and blamed. and all of a sudden I'm a monster. But when I do something great, then all the assholes worship me. I'm sick of it.
Honestly. its really fucked up.

helms too, that is fucked up. I have chosen this existence for myself, so who am I to bitch about anything. I chose it. It's just....wow. Shocking the lack of understanding and consideration there is in people. I am seeing....very quickly...who is full of shit and who is real. And there are very few who are real. Most ACT like they are gold, and are really piss poor copper.

just in general, the overall feeling, having been so incredibly successful in such a short amount of time, rising faster than anyone around here, and most in the industry, instead of experiencing praise and great joy , all I've been met with is more people, wanting more out of me, just sucking all my juices out of me, without any decency or understanding of what I am going thru.

it is like...the more successful I become, the further away from people I get. You'd think people would want to be around the light, around the positivity which I have surrounded my professional life with. But no, instead, the more success I get, the more doubt, cynicism, jealousy and hatred I get from people. People who I am discovering very quickly are totally FAKE. People that have claimed to be Friends, family even, and when I need them the most, in this crucial part of my life, nobody is there. I have been there for EVERYBODY. Supporting people, giving them advice, giving away game to help Them in Their careers, and now when I'm the one who is rising, all of a sudden I'm the selfish bad guy. It's almost like people EXPECT and WANT me to fail. and when I continually don't, and keep succeeding, they just are frothing at the mouth waiting to bring me down.

Well I won't fall down and I'm unbreakable. Whatever the hell all you throw at me, I'll keep rising. and when I get an oscar, and when I get to where I aim to go, you will all see.

JUST WATCH.

I am grateful to all the ones that have helped, and the ones that continually helped. And there are many of you. For one thing, the main part, Helms and my Parents. HELMS: Without YOU, I Would Be NOTHING. YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU all YOU Are and YOUR LOVE, is what is my STRENGTH AND ROCK. That will NEVER change. You are my SOUL, and whatever happens, you will ALWAYS be in my life, in whatever way, shape or form, whether romantic or friendship. You....how can I possibly even begin to THANK YOU???!!! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE YOU. And To my Parents: I LOVE YOU. You are both....INCREDIBLE. I have the BEST parents in the world. Whatever we've been thru, that is the PAST. All we can change is the NOW, and the FUTURE. Regardless of the drama, I KNOW you did your VERY BEST for me, and you've done everything you possibly could. Don't think that I'm not grateful. I AM. It's just....wish there was some understanding and consideration from your end, instead of blaming me for not doing this and that. I'm doing my best. Thank you to all the professional people I have met who are helping me. Many truly great, truly Good people, who are powerful in business and this industry, but still have not become assholes in the process, and are bestowing their kindness upon me. I know it is because I have shown I am dedicated, here to stay, work my butt off, and want it more than anyone else. I've prepared, I keep working at it, and it is all happening. THANK YOU. You will not regret it. This is more just a vent and frustration about how hater people have been acting towards me. Stop with your demands. I don't have a million Liliana's that can go around and there are just too many of you , wanting too many things from me. just stop. I'm doing my best.

Peace out.

And remember to listen to that song by T.I and Rihanna. Listen to T.I's rap, because that is how I feel about many of You.

I'm a Model...You Know What I Mean..The CATWALK lol

Modeling a High Fashion/Avant Garde Runway Show on Saturday night, Feb. 7, 2009

Model: ME-LILIANA. duh. lol. 6 guys, 6 girls. They're all HOT. -duh.
Designer: NATHALIA + 2 other Surprise Guest Designers
Featured Star fashion line: Celebrity Paris Hilton's new shoe line

20:00 (8 pm for y'all who don't like military time-I LOVE IT)

6363 Hollywood Blvd. (corner of Cahuenga Blvd. and Hollywood Blvd.), Hollywood, California, NATHALIA's FASHION BOUTIQUE/ANDROMEDA.

No ticket or guest list necessary, just tell the gate people one of the models-Liliana, invited you. All should be good.

Bring ID just in case.

There will be a lotta industry people there, good opportunity to network.

SO

BE THERE.

Watch me do my thang. Or fall flat on my ass. Haha. Either way, your support would be appreciated!

The "Secret" of Success...

When you have no way to escape Fear, you cease to be Afraid......
Live Without Fear!

LILIANA
Liliana Alam a.k.a TheAnomalyInfinite (TheAI)
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Actress.
Model.

(Agency Represented)

Based in Hollywood, USA

Additionally:

Masseuse (Freelance and Company Represented: http://www.aromatiquemassage.com ). Writer (Published Author) . Artist (Gallery Exhibited) . Musician (National Musician's Guild Member) . Inventor (Patents-Pending). Designer (Self-Line). Dancer (En Pointe) . Chef (Well-Versed) . Entrepreneur.

C.E.O. and Co-Founder, EmpireEnterprises

IQ: 163 points (classified above Genius)

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Buy LILIANA Artwork, Music, Posters, Books, thru Liliana@LilianaAlam.com
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Online Store:
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"What you dream is already your reality. You have to believe in it enough to see it."

"A genius is someone who aims for an invisible basket, scores, and is then told by others he is delusional."

"1 hair on your head is not enough, but 1 in your soup is too much"- Albert Einstein on relativity

"Many starving for bread. Many more starving for Love."-Mother Theresa

FEAR NOTHING. QUESTION EVERYTHING. LOVE EVERYONE. RULE THE UNIVERSE.

"yea...you know all that shit you aint' willin' to do? I do it. That's why I'm Successful and you're bitchin' about how hard life is."

*NEVER SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN WHAT YOU CAN BE*

The True Measure of Greatness

A newspaper in Bangladesh has named my father, Dr. Maqsudul Alam, one of the Top 5 Men of the Year for Bangladesh.

This is a shining and proud moment. It is an honor to be this great man's daughter.

Humbled.

Will upload newspaper article when I get it and scan it.

Oh I am a fearsome thing......hahahahha

From PRIDE & PREJUDICE :


Mr. Darcy ," The word (accomplished) is indeed applied too liberally. I cannot boast of knowing more than half a dozen women in all my acquaintance that are truly accomplished."

Caroline, "Nor I, to be sure."

Elizabeth (Lizzy), "Goodness. You must comprehend a great deal in the idea."

Mr. Darcy, "I do."

Caroline, "Absolutely. She must have a thorough knowledge of music, singing, drawing, dancing, and the modern languages to deserve the word. And something in her air and manner of walking

."

Mr. Darcy, "And, of course, she must improve her mind by extensive reading."

Lizzy, "I'm no longer surprised at your knowing only six accomplished women. I rather wonder now at your knowing any. "

Mr. Darcy, "Are you so severe on your own sex?"

Lizzy, "I never saw such a woman. She would certainly be a fearsome thing to behold

."

First Official Celebrity Meet

SOO. Guess who I Met at a club tonite? Gordon Ramsey. Yes, That Gordon Ramsey. HOLY SHIT.

I was dancin with some dude at this club AREA and I look over, and I'm like shit is that Gordon Ramsey??!!!! He didn't have a whole crowd of fans around him, I don't think people even know who he is in America. (None of the people in my group knew who he was. I'm like are you serious? He's a fuckin famous Chef. He's so kool. !) Anyway, affter a while, I went up to him (he was on the same dance floor, exactly one couple over from me) , he was dancing with a girl, I tapped him on the shoulder, said, "hey you're Gordon Ramsey right? He kind of smiled like awkwardly, like he was happy with his anonymity. I didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable. I just said, "Man, you're awsum. I love your show. My boyfriend and I watched it all the time. I just relocated here from New Zealand." Then he said, "oh really?! What part?" Then I said, "Wellington, Tauranga." And he said, "What's your name". And I said, "Liliana". And he said, "Well I'm with a group of people....so....Happy New Year Liliana!" (random eh the New Year thing? lol. that must have been so weird for him, trying to figure out a polite way to tell me to fuck off.) He smiled, put his hand on my shoulder, and I said, "cool, cool. Thanks for talkin' to me. Have a great night!" and I walked (ok, squeezed between a lot of people as this was at a club, lol "walked" in the other direction). And that was that. I kept buggin one of the girls in our clubbing group to use her camera and take a pic of us, but she kept saying "later, later", and of course, later never came, so I don't have any photographic proof of this fucking moment that I doubt will ever happen again. Well I don't know, maybe Ramsey comes to AREA a lot. He was gettin' all kinda freaky with this one girl from his group, lol, it was funny. Oh and what was so Trippy, is that he looks EXACTLY like he looks on TV. I mean, the wrinkled forehead, the hair, everything, its just surreal. So, I officially had my first "celebrity" encounter. He was pretty nice, I half expected him to be like, "fuck you, I'm Gordon Ramsey." So there you go. THIS, THIS which just happened is another reason why it is worth it to be in LA. you never know when you'll run into someone you respect. It was pretty groovy. Woulda been cool to dance with him, probably could have done the slutty thing and shoved my way in, but nah, that's f'cked up. I was trying to figure out a way how I could utilize the networking factor, but my industry is like a whole other world from his, so what's even the point of the whole, here is my card thing. This is actually true of another friend of mine who has run into a Lot of celebrities here, and the main point is that, even if you meet Angelina Jolie, ok, so what. How will that advance your career? A photo in a tabloid? Nah. What you need, and who you need to be meeting with, is not Angelina, but Angelina's Agent. or Ramsey's Agent. But ya, I did the best I could for when I was there. Plus, I was the spotlight of the club, as always, was in a few circles of spontaneous dancer battles, it was so fuckin' fun. One other reason I was trying to attract as much attention to myself as possible was to maybe reel him in like a fish. But it didn't work. lol. It was great seeing him just chillin out with everyone on the floor, again, I don't think anyone knew who he was besides his group, which there were only about 5 of. It's nuts. You could be like Angelina Jolie, and go to China or somewhere where nobody knew you, and blend in. Well Ramsey isn't like Super Famous , but in the UK and Australia/NZ, he's HUGE.

Okey Dokey . I'm just chillaxin after clubbin w/ my group. lol yes I'm on the comp while everyone is thinkin' I'm nuts.

what a cool night. The first thought I had about all this was holy shit Helms would TRIP!!!!

YES!

My new Acting MySpace:

http://www.myspace.com/LilianaTheActress


UPDATE:

Warning: It's full of the greatness of Life. Pessimists, Cynics and Haters beware!

NOTE: I AM SO F****** GRATEFUL AND BLESSED FOR EVERY MOMENT. TO ALL WHO HAVE HELPED, ALL WHO ARE HELPING, AND ALL WHO BELIEVE.

Ok some news tidbits:
-shooting "Smoking Aces: Blowback" in New Orleans next week. Small part in from what I understand is a shit movie, but it will be noticed. The film is going to get a lot of exposure.
And it is an action/thriller/pulp fiction type of movie, which is one of the genres of my aim. Gonna be a powerforce/angelina jolie type, in addition to dark/suepernatural stuff.

My part is cooooool-a singer in a jazz club, just when "shit is about to go down". I'm singing, and dancing/performing a song in it, (utilizes a few of my talents) which I'm recording in the studio this week. It's like a moulin rouge/type of scene. And I'm the lead singer. think like marilyn monroe with an ethnic new orleans flavour, in a jazz club with lotsa smoke and guns.
-new front-runner for modeling campaign of "Trust No Man" gear. Local (LA) and possibly National billboards.
-reviewing a screenplay-top secret weeehhee!!-for a film that I have been offered the Lead for. No I can't disclose the name of the film, the director, or the production house yet. Sorry. Keep watch for updates to see if I picked it, and what it is...dun dun dun.....



More Tidbits:

-HELMS I FUCKIN' LOVE YOU.
-my Dad is getting Married in March in Bangladesh!!!! Wee!!!! I am of course going to the wedding. March 15-30. And I have a New Sister!!!! WOW!!!!! YAY!!! Go Dad!
-I Love My Mom. That remains. Always. She is so Supportive, and what an amazingly different phase we are going thru. You see people, All relationships Can and SHOULD be worked on and Changed. It's never too late! Respect and love your parents! You've only got 1 set!!!! Your mom should be your Queen and your father your King.
-I saw "Yes Man" at the gramahn's chinese theatre. Theatre, no biggie, it's cool but....just a theatre. lol. Movie..ok it was not one of his best, the main message is Vital and Great, but the execution was a bit poor and overly cliche. I give it 1.5 star. One of these days I aim to meet the great Jim Carey. He's still hilarious as ever. And Zooey Deschanel, Love her.
-moving into my new apartment 1st week of Feb
-I have 4 other jobs which I Love, besides being an agency represented Actress. and Model.
And all of them pay lucratively and consistently. Plus, I freelance all my talents. Aside from the doubt of many, No I have not had to get a job at Burger King or become a Waitress. I knew my plan would work, and it is. All of this additional income, with what I enjoy, allows me to not have to be a "starving" actress and choose movies that have bad parts or do the Jessica Alba thing of doing Dark Angel-the one good thing she's done, and then starring in a bunch of piss-poor comedies where she is half-naked in each thing. I get the strategy, completely, and I Love Jessica Alba, but I aim not to have to go there.

These are the jobs:
1) Fundraiser for a Non-Profit Organization. (after 6 days of training I was informed one of my calls made the "top 20 training calls of All time." And, after just 1 week, I was offered the position of executive assistant to the C.E.O of the company. I turned it down because it's a full-time gig. But, Flattered.

2) Masseuse (usually I freelance and have my own client base, but in LA-can be dangerous- you never know, so I joined a massage company for now that finds me clients, until I familiarize myself enough with LA).
-I already have been booked at my new agency (after just 4 days of launching the website)-well duh. lol. nah its cuz of the picture: (marketing ya know. oy.)
http://www.aromatiquemassage.com/ (check under STAFF) there's fuckin spelling errors all over the place, but my director-doesn't seem to think its that important. HA! Well we get booked anyway so I guess in some sense he's right. He's pretty great, I think I've pissed him off a bit though. lol.

3) Travel guide for Wagaami.com "Wagaami" is a mixed French and Japanese word, which roughly translated means "friend". This company is revolutionizing the travel industry by providing a personalized (Non sexual! and Safe) professional service for savvy travelers who want an inside perspective on cities they travel to. Though I just got to LA, my skill-set in being comfortable with people is the main ingredient for this "position". lol. I get paid to basically have a great time with new and interesting people...

4) Talent Scout for LIMELIGHT Entertainment. We seek specific types of Models (female and male). Though both this one and the non-profit position, I am cutting back my hours because the main Masseuse + my freelance work (Music, Art, Writing-business plans, Tutoring, Dance, Etc.) pays enough for all. Plus this New Orleans gig will bring a nice payola.
>Yes . I will gladly buy y'all cookies and take you to disneyland when I'm famous. And a whole lot more. But keep in mind, the road to the top is a Looong one, that takes hard, ball-busting work and toil, one I'm fully ready to walk on until I reach the gates.


-I have made so many network connections with bigwigs in Hollywood, in a short time its fuckin nuts. I mean....every day is SURREAL. I have a plan of attack as to all the people I Need to meet to get into my Film Niche.
-I have made new friends, that are all Incredible. I feel so BLESSED. Film producers, Musicians, Music Producers, Photographers, a few Actors, one Model.


-other stuff. Yes. there is a lot more. but that stuff is not g-rated and if you want to know about it you'll have to email me. And I'll reply to you when my schedule permits.....mmm......


-My life....it's not just like something out of a dream, or Is a dream, it's.....like some made up fantasy that I keep pinching myself as to it's reality. Simultaneously, I know it all is REAL, and it is all of my making. Also, I would not be here without the help of so many. I carry the dreams and hopes of many, in me. Know that as I am succeeding, and the further I get, we rise Together.

I LOVE YOU.

Every One Of You. ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.

May you LIVE THE LIFE YOU IMAGINED. EVERY SECOND.

p.s If you ever find me full of myself (well yes I'm a megalomaniac, but you know what I mean) then please give me a hard punch and an ass-whooping. My integrity Must stay in tact in this land of Vices. Don't get me wrong..I LOVE Hollywood.....but it's easy to start thinking you're "the shit" and forget where you came from. So I repeat, Kick Me In The Ass if I start to Become an Ass.

What A Great Time To Be A U.S Citizen. Proud, FINALLY.

R.I.P Beloved Murka

You were my animal soul mate. You were the smartest, most beautiful, most noblest cat in the world. Nobody could have asked for a better friend, a better confidante. I know your spirit lives on. I Love You.

May everyone who sees this please take a moment in passing to pray for Murka's spirit.

Thank You.

Above is my Beautiful Murka's photo.


Anyone that knew Murka, please contact me for details about our small memorial.


"Murka loved you and that you loved her. Murka is a very special kitty. You always talked about her with the widest smile on your face and brightest gleam in your eye, her street smartness, her feistiness and playfulness, but, she was also regal and classy, keeping situations under her terms. I remember all the gifts that you told me she used to bring as she pranced happily towards you with birdies and the like. =)

Liliana was Murka's, Murka was Liliana's and Murka knew that you loved her very much.

And God asked the feline spirit
Are you ready to come home?
Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
And, as a cat, you know I am most able
To decide anything for myself.

Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered angel
But I must come slowly
For my human friends are troubled
For you see, they need me, quite certainly.

But don't they understand? asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is....forever and ever and ever.

Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them
I just am....forever and ever and ever.

- Unknown

Viva Forever Murka

Happiness is in the Absence

"What is it that you fantasize about?

World Peace?
International Fame?
Winning a Pulitzer Prize, Nobel Peace Prize?
An MTV Music Award?
Meeting some genius hunk ostensibly bad but secretly simmering with noble passion and willing to sleep on the wet spot?

Lacan's point> Fantasies Have to be unrealistic, because the second that you get what you seek, you don't-- you can't want it anymore.

In order to continue to exist...desire must have its objects perpetually absent.

It's not the "it" that you want.
It's the fantasy of "it".

So, desire supports crazy fantasies.

This is what Pascal means when he says that we are only truly happy...when Daydreaming about future happiness.

Or why we say...

the hunt is sweeter than the kill.

Or be careful what you wish for,
not because you'll get it...
but because you're doomed not to want it once you do.

So the lesson of Lacan is, living by your wants will never make you happy.

What it means to be fully human is to strive to live by ideas and ideals...
and not to measure your life by what you've attained in terms of your desires...

but those small moments of integrity, compassion,
rationality, even self-sacrifice.

Because in the end, the only way that we can measure the significance of our own lives...

is by valuing the lives of others."

-from "The Life of David Gale"

Development

Liliana Maqsudulovna Alam was born on August 15, 1986 in Pyatigorsk, Russia to Bangladeshi father Dr. Maqsudul Alam, a scientist (then pursuing his phD) and Russian mother Dr. Irina Anatolievna Pyrkova-Corotan (re-married) physician (then in med-school). She migrated to America with her parents at age 6. Living first in Washington State and Hawaii. From the ages of 4-9 her parents tutored her extensively in the subjects of geography, mathematics, world cultures, and science. From age 9 onwards Liliana self-educated herself in the areas of literature, philosophy, science, history, economics, world cultures, art, music, and other disciplines. Her parents divorced when Liliana was 11, and she moved with her mother to Pennsylvania, then to Northern California, moving back and forth between her parents. During her childhood and adolescence she traveled with her mother and father (separately) to Europe, Bangladesh, Taiwan, Russia, the Bahamas, Mexico, Canada and much of continental America. Liliana attended over 20 different schools of varying disciplines (Catholic, private and conservative to public, to traditional, to schools for the Gifted), including Montessori, prestigious private academy Punahou of Hawaii, and Northwestern Pennsylvania Collegiate Academy. Liliana graduated early at 16 from Kihei Public Charter High School in Maui, Hawaii, being the first and only to have done it at KHS, established for "out-of-the-box thinking, self-motivated students". She moved to New Zealand where she pursued a double Bachelor of Science and Biomedical Science degree at Victoria University, changing majors 3 times between Mathematics/Physics/Human Genetics, Psychology/Criminology, and Chemistry/Geology. During this time she worked independently on her Mathematical Number Theory Pi Thesis, and 2 books she had been writing since age 13. She found the university system unchallenging and unfullfilling. It was fatefully around the same when a personal lending situation went wrong, and Liliana was robbed of 10 grand by a former friend, that Liliana (the former non-conformist Idealist) discovered the world of Business. She left university and continues to make a living off of her plethora of mainly self-taught talents: Writer, Model, Actress, Artist, Musician, Dancer, Masseuse, Chef, Entrepreneur. She finished 2 books in 2007, poetry/artwork/photography work "Cacaoethes Scribendi: The Urge to Write", and "The Anomaly Infinite" a multi-genre loosely autobiographical but fictional novel. Liliana has been IQ tested several times throughout her life and is currently at 163 pts., with 130 points and above being considered statistically "Genius".


Career

Liliana was discovered as a Model at the age of 11. However she rejected the offers she received. As well as her parents, particularly her mother. She was invited to the 2001 Talent Convention in Opry, North Carolina but did not attend. A talent scout from a newspaper ad took interest in her, but the necessary parental permission was not given. She graduated from Barbizon Model & Training school in 2002. Liliana was the lead singer of the rock/darkwave band Sui Generis, members Ryan Aranda and Andrew Venable. At age 20, she became the Creative Director and Art Analyst Writer of Yasumi Online, a website specializing in the sale of Antique Asian Art, the founder of who recruited her upon his belief in her raw business acumen and cutthroat instinct. Liliana independently finds works in sectors ranging from Massage to Writing to Business to Modeling, thru forums such as craigslist, modelmayhem, her previous client base, and of course her websites and google. She is additionally currently signed to MORE Models & Talent in Hawaii, imageModels & Talent and Possum Productions in New Zealand and lives between California, Hawaii and New Zealand.

Liliana just signed to new representation in Hollywood for her two main current focuses: Acting & Modeling.

Liliana utilized the marketing tools of the Internet several years ago and manages about 10 websites, and social networking forums to promote her talents and image to industry professionals, as well as her personal following.


Two projects which are in the long-term future are the establishment of her powerhouse company EmpireEnterprises and ATARAXIA, a new school system. Liliana currently scours the world for exceptional talent and people, thru person and online networking sites, building a database of people for her future projects.


Achievements

As a youth Liliana excelled in all academia, winning numerous contests and scholarships in all fields; indeed achieving the coveted Johns Hopkins Medical School Scholarship for Gifted Youth at the age of 9. (Liliana ranked 99th percentile in a nationwide achievement test). She also ranked 99.9% percentile in a Nationwide Writing Assessment test thru her 9th grade Journalism course at NW Academy, 1st place 2 years in a row at her Piano Studio for best Student, she maintained a 4.3 GPA average throughout early schooling. She was the Only underclassmen in the majority of her grueling Honours and AP courses. In addition to Academics, Liliana won numerous competitions in art, literature, invention/science, music, etc. including an acceptance into the National Musician's Guild Society (for her piano repertoire) at age 10, admission into the Junior Honor Roll Society, 1st place for a memoir and Honorable Mention for a sci-fi short story when she was 10 in the Hawaii state Language Arts Competition, 1st place at the Washington statewide Youth Art Competition,1st place at a junior Science "Invention Convention" for her "kitty kat-feeder", She was tested at Sylvan Center as a 6 year old for exceptional academic ability, again at age 16, and 20 at other testing facilities, scoring 163 points on an IQ test, putting her in the statistical category of "genius", with an IQ of above 130 pts. being "genius". Liliana was the first to graduate high school early at KHS, and did it using her own particular method of advanced AP credits and extracurricular credits from Volunteer work (Hawaiian Humane Society and Medical Volunteer), and taking community college courses in HS.

Personal

From a young age Liliana exhibited an interest in understanding the mentalities of people, and experiencing different lifestyles and cultures. She is an Atheist of her own belief system, and has experimented with Wiccan, Goth, Meditation, Buddhism and Agnostic schools of thought. She shaved her head bald at 17 in a move to rid herself of "earthly materialism". Her persona, writings, poems, art and philosophies have inspired an underground following, mostly thru the internet.

Liliana cares deeply about People, all types of people (including everyone from high-power CEOs to 3rd-World Housewives), constantly finding new talent and people, maintaining a personal connection thru emails and websites with her supporters, friends and fan base.

Liliana's official website: www.LilianaAlam.com, was created gratis by Christian Nikolaisen, the force behind such websites as www.my-diary.org.

Her artist name "The Anomaly Infinite" derives itself from:
"the"
"anomaly"
"infinite"

Liliana had the physical appearance of a 25 year old at age 13. The attention she received then and continues to receive from men was overwhelming, and partially contributes to her suspicion of new people at times.

Liliana is currently in a relationship with Half-Austrian/Half-Papua New Guinean Futboller and Filmmaker Helmut Marko, who she met in New Zealand and has been with for 5 years. She has no desire to get married and rejects the conformist plan of marriage, kids, and a house in the suburbs, though is understanding of those who choose this path in life.

She cherishes family and keeps close connections between her father, mother, her 3 yr. old half-brother John Paul and 17 yr. old step-brother Mile Corotan, and family in Bangladesh and Russia.

Liliana has been diagnosed by 5 different physicians and psychotherapists as everything from Schizophrenic, Bipolar Disorder, Hypomania, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Attention Deficit Disorder,

Liliana is not on any medication, is shockingly stable and lucid, and believes that what the western medical community defines as "disease" is a gateway of consciousness which allows for higher thought-patterns not as easily accessible by those considered "normal". Her personal and theoretical experience in this category has spurned the creation of papers presenting her arguement refuting the current perception about mental illness.

Due to her transcendent way of thinking, Liliana shifts between being extroverted, highly focused, motivated and achievement-orientated in the practical world, to an introverted hermit who sees materialism, and goals silly inventions of modern society and finds enlightnement in the state of "being".

Liliana's core aims and purpose in life are to fulfill all of her talents and areas to the best of her abilities, and leave behind a great legacy of change in the world by doing so. Her independent marks of significance have to do with her being a Writer, Artist, Musician, Actress. Her global contributions have to do with her entrepreneurial ventures of Inventions, EmpireEnterprises, and ATARAXIA: a new school system for the world. Though both of these areas of Liliana relate to each other.






EXTRA TIDBITS

Liliana won numerous competitions in art, literature, invention/science, music, etc. including an acceptance into the National Guild Society (for her piano repertoire) at age 10. Liliana attended over 15 different high schools across the globe at different educational systems ranging from those aimed for the gifted to traditional public and private catholic schools. At age 16 she graduated early at Kihei (Maui, Hawaii) Public Charter High School, a non-traditional school for motivated and "out-of-the-box" students. She worked on a scientific research project on pi, of her own thesis, experienced meditation, wrote a book, even shaved her head bald. At 17 she was accepted into prestigious Victoria University in Wellington, New Zealand where she pursued a Biomedical Science degree in Human Genetics, Physics and Mathematics, and a Bachelor of Science degree in Psychology and Geology. Liliana did not find challenge or adequate stimulus in the university or any traditional school environment and left Victoria. She worked on another book, inventions, modeling (Liliana has been modeling since age 13), acting, and various other pursuits. This poetry project is a section of a much longer 10,000 page multi-genre, multi-media, book project to be released sometime in the future. Liliana has been tested for IQ and achieved way beyond the statistical limit of 150 points. To give some perspective of the unique workings of Liliana's versatile mind,"Genius", in terms of these standardized IQ tests is deemed 130 points and above. At only 21, Liliana now lives, works, and travels around the world. Liliana calls herself a "nomad/Citizen of the World", and is called a "gypsy" by her father who shares a close bond with Liliana. Liliana is fond of people, observing different cultures, sights and mannerisms, and goes with her Muse, half Papua New Guinean half Austrian rising filmmaker Helmut Marko (her life partner) wherever her creative juices, goals, and huge ambitions inspire her. Liliana's message to all dreamers, believers, creators, and all people everywhere is to "imagine. don't listen to what your naysayers tell you, pursue the visions in your mind with unshakable determination and lastly, Love Everyone. Fear Nothing. Rule the Universe." Liliana is known in underground circles as "The Anomaly Infinite" for her vast and unique abilities in countless areas, the first being of her kind-The Anomaly, for having talents without explanation or end-Infinite. The paragraphs below provide some further explanation of this other, "supernatural", "crazy", extreme side of Liliana.

"THEANOMALYINFINITE A.K.A LILIANA ALAM IS A WRITER, MODEL, ARTIST, MUSICIAN, ATHLETE, INVENTOR, PHILOSOPHER, EQUESTRIAN, CHEF, MENTALIST MASTER, SEX & HEALTH ADVISOR, MASSEUSE, DANCER, ETC.!!! A GENIUS, A VISIONARY…. AI’S UNIQUE METHOD OF DOING EVERYTHING, DOING IT WITH "THE AI FLAVOUR” VERSATILE GENIUS, AND EASILY NAVIGATING BETWEEN VAST AREAS OF EXPERTISE, MAKES HER THE FIRST OF HER KIND. A CHILD PRODIGY HIDDEN FROM THE PUBLIC EYE, AI “DID IT ALL” BY THE AGE OF 10. NOW AT 20 SHE'S GROWN TO BEING IT ALL, AND IS NOW SHARING HER STORY WITH THE WORLD…. WITNESS THE RISE OF AI."
www.breakfree2energy.blogspot.com
THEANOMALYINFINITE HAS ABILITIES SUCH AS INVENTING A NEW KIND OF MATHEMATICS, EXCELLING IN ALL AREAS IN RANGE FROM MUSIC TO SCIENCE TO ART, MOVING A PIECE OF STRING TIED TO A STONE USING SOLELY HER MIND (RESEARCH MENTALISM, A METHOD USED BY MANY MAGICIANS, A FAMOUS EXAMPLE OF ONE WHO USES IT IS CRISSANGEL:MINDFREAK). THE, SIGNIFIES A SINGULAR, SOMETHING OBSOLETE. ANOMALY IS DEFINED AS A PROIGY, GENIUS, A BEING BEYOND THE DEFINITION OF CURRENT SCIENCE, INFINITE MEANS EXPANDING FOREVER IN MANY DIRECTIONS, NOT BEING LIMITED TO ANY ONE DIRECTION. THUS: THEANOMALYINFINITE. AI HAS DONE THINGS WHICH MANY HAVE CLASSIFIED AS SUPREMELY GENIUS, AND OTHERS HAVE CLASSIFIED AS THE OPPOSITE: FALSE, TRICKERY, CLEVER DECEPTION, AND NOT TRUE MAGIC, TRUE MIRACLE, TRUE GENIUS, OR THE TRUE SUPERNATURAL WHICH MANY CONSIDER INACCESSIBLE FOR ORDINARY PEOPLE. AI BELIEVES THAT THE SUPERNATURAL IS ACCESSIBLE AND ACHIEVEABLE BY ALL PEOPLE, AND THAT THE TRUE POWER OF THE MIND IS WHAT EXPLAINS THAT WHICH IS DEEMED TO BE SUPERNATURAL, TRUE MAGIC, MIRACULOUS, AND UNHOLY. AI BELIEVES THAT UNDERSTANDING THE UNLIMITED POWER OF THE MIND CAN EXPLAIN THE PERCEIVED MIRACLES AND PREVIOUSLY MISUNDERSTOOD ABILITIES OF JESUS CHRIST, WOLFGANG AMADEUS MOZART, VOLTAIRE, LEONARDO DA VINCI, YOGIS, PRODIGYS, GENIUSES, AND FIGURES THROUGHOUT THE COURSE OF HISTORY WHO ARE BELIEVED TO HAVE BROKEN LAWS OF NATURE AND PHYSICS, ANOMALYS WHO HAVE EXCEEDED THE LIMIT OF NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS. AI BELIEVES THAT ANYONE CAN POSESS THESE PREVIOUSLY DEEMED INACCESSIBLE POWERS AND CAN PRACTICE THEM AT WILL, WITH THE FULL UNDERSTANDING OF THE UNLIMITED CAPABILITIES OF THE HUMAN MIND. THE FOLLOWING WILL DETAIL THE HISTORY OF IE IN THE HOPE THAT PEOPLE WILL BE ABLE TO SEE THAT THE MIRACULOUS, THE SUPERNATURAL, THE GENIUS, IS REAL, BUT NOT INACCESSIBLE. THAT ANYONE HAS THE CAPABILITY TO WALK ON WATER, WALK ON HOT COALS, MOVE OBJECTS WITH THEIR MINDS, AND OTHER SUCH CONSIDERED BIZARRE PHENOMENA. IE BELIEVES THAT ANYONE, IS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING, EVEN THAT WHICH IS CONSIDERED PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE. WHAT FOLLOWS WILL CONTINUALLY BE UPDATED THROUGH WRITING, PHOTOGRAPHY, VIDEO, AND OTHER FORMS OF DOCUMENTATION OF IE'S ABILITIES, AND HISTORICAL EXAMPLES, UNTIL THE CLAIM WHICH IE HAS MADE IS ACCEPTED AND UNDERSTOOD. IE'S GENETIC HISTORY COMPRISES SCIENTISTS, MUSICIANS, ARCHITECTS, DESIGNERS, MILITARY GENERALS, CANDLEMAKERS, ARTISTS, ENGINEERS, ETC. AI AND HER PARENTS HAVE A LONG WITHSTANDING LOVING, YET EXTREMELY COMPLICATED AND STRANGE RELATIONSHIP. AI REMAINS DYNAMICALLY CLOSE WITH HER FATHER AND HOPES TO ONE DAY BUILD AN EMPIRE WORTHY OF HIS MORAL AND ETHICAL LEGACY.


AI A.K.A LILIANA ALAM WAS BORN IN PIETEGORSK, RUSSIA, ON AUGUST 15,1986 TO A RUSSIAN PHYSICIAN MOTHER (AN ORPHAN. PHYSICS, ATHLETICS, ETC. WHIZ) AND A PROMINENT BENGALY MICROBIOLOGIST FATHER (SCHOLARSHIP WINNER, 2 P.H.D's/biochemistry/microbiology, STUDIED AT MAX-PLANCK UNIVERSITY, ALBERT EINSTEIN SCHOOL IN NY, US, MOSCOW UNIVERSITY). SHE LEARNED TO SWIM AT AGE 1. AT 2 SHE RECITED RUSSIAN POET PUSHKIN'S ILLIAD LENGTH POEMS BY MEMORY. AT 3 SHE SHOWED TALENT IN MUSICAL, MATHEMATICAL, ACADEMIC, ATHLETIC, AND ADDITIONAL ABILITIES. AT 5 SHE MIGRATED WITH HER PARENTS TO WASHINGTON STATE, AMERICA, WHERE SHE WON A STATEWIDE ART COMPETITION. FROM AGES 6-10 HER PARENTS PRIVATELY TUTORED HER EXTENSIVELY IN MATHEMATICS, GEOGRAPHY, HISTORY, LANGUAGES (IE SPEAKS FLUENT RUSSIAN, ENGLISH, PARTIAL- ARABIC, BANGLA, SPANISH, GERMAN, FRENCH, JAPANESE) WHILST IE ATTENDED 5 DIFFERENT SCHOOLS IN DIFFERENT STATES, INCLUDING MONTESSORI-A SCHOOL FOR GIFTED CHILDREN. AT 9 SHE WAS ACCEPTED INTO THE NATIONAL GUILD OF MUSIC FOR HER ABILITIES IN PIANO (IE PLAYS PIANO, GUITAR, RECORDER, PARTIAL- TENOR SAXAPHONE, SITAR, DRUMS-JIMBAY,BASS GUITAR, ETC. ALSO AT 9 SHE TESTED SAT 99th percentile STATEWIDE OF HAWAII FOR WHICH SHE WON A JOHN HOPKINS SUMMER SCHOLARSHIP. IE DID NOT TAKE THE SCHOLARSHIP, AND INSTEAD TRAVELED TO EUROPE WITH HER MOTHER. IT WAS AROUND THIS TIME THAT IE'S GROWING FASCINATION WITH THE MANY PERCEPTIONS AND POSSIBILITIES WHICH SURROUNDED HER SKYROCKETED. SHE WANTED TO BE NORMAL AND EXPERIENCE "NORMAL" LIFE. HER PARENTS AND ACADEMIC ADVISORS ATTEMPTED TO KEEP IE FROM EXPLORING THE VAST POSSIBILITIES BEYOND HER STRICT SCHEDULE. IE REBELLED AND DECIDED TO EXPLORE AS MANY TERRITORIES AND MENTALITIES AS POSSIBLE. IE WAS ACCEPTED INTO PUNAHOU SCHOOL OF HAWAII FOR ACADEMICALLY ADVANCED STUDENTS. SHE LEFT THE PRIVATE SCHOOL SYSTEM AT AGE 12, THE SAME YEAR IE'S PARENTS DIVORCED. THE TUTORING HAD STOPPED AT AGE 9, BUT AI CONTINUED TO SELF-EDUCATE HERSELF IN AREAS SUCH AS ECONOMICS, HISTORY, POLITICS, GEOGRAPHY, MILITARY STRATEGY, THE ARTS, PHYSICAL FITNESS, SCIENCE, LANGUAGES, MUSIC, MATHEMATICS, THE PARANORMAL & OCCULT, RELIGION, ETC. AI MOVED WITH HER MOTHER TO PENNSYLVANIA, U.S, IN THE HOPES OF BEING SURROUNDED BY A MORE AMBITIOUS, FOCUSED, MOTIVATED AND CULTURAL POPULACE. THE EAST COAST OF AMERICA GREETED AI WITH COLD HANDS AND HER ABUNDANT TALENTS AND PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES BECAME A SOURCE OF JEALOUSY AT TEH 3 HIGH SCHOOLS SHE ATTENDED, AND SHE WAS OSTRACIZED LARGELY BY THE FEMALE STUDENT BODY FOR HER CONTRADICTIVE NATURE OF BEING SUPREMEMLY BRILLIANT (AI IN 9TH GRADE WAS IN ALL HONOURS CLASSES AMIDST 11TH AND 12TH GRADE STUDENTS) EXTROVERTED, AND PHYSICALLY SUPERIOR IN APPEARANCE SO MUCH THAT IN SOME WEEKS IE WAS "ASKED OUT" BY EVERY EXISTING FEMALE'S BOYFRIEND. AT 13, IE HAD THE PHYSICAL APPEARANCE OF A 20 YEAR OLD. AN EX-BOYFRIEND QUOTES, "SHE LOOKED LIKE A GORGEOUS, SUCCESSFUL, 28 YEAR OLD WOMAN!!!" AI NEVER LIED ABOUT HER AGE AND USED IT INSTEAD AS A SHOCK FACTOR. HER FIRST BOYFRIEND WAS 21. AI FREQUENTLY SPENT TIME AROUND OLDER PEOPLE, FINDING THEIR MATURITY CLOSER TO HERS. SHE RARELY RELATED TO PEOPLE HER OWN AGE. AI RECEIVED MODELLING AND ACTING OFFERS, AND A CHANGE TO ENTER A BEAUTY PAGEANT. AI'S MOTHER DECLINED HER PERMISSION FOR AI TO MODEL, REASONING IT WAS A DANGEROUS BUSINESS. AI, BEING REBELLIOUS FROM A YOUNG AGE, RAN AWAY FROM HOME SEVERAL TIMES AND ALTHOUGH DID NOT PURSUE A MODELING CAREER OR FAME, AI EXPERIMENTED IN AS MANY AREAS AS SHE COULD, DEFYING HER PARENTS. DURING 12-16 AI ATTENDED OVER 6 HIGH SCHOOLS IN DIFFERENT STATES BEFORE DECIDING THE HIGH SCHOOL SYSTEM IS EXTREMELY FLAWED IN ENCOURAGING INDIVIDUAL GROWTH AND EXCEPTIONAL TALENT. AI WANTED TO EXPOSE HERSELF TO AS MANY HIGH SCHOOLS AS POSSIBLE WHICH IS WHY THE HOME-SCHOOLING OPTION WAS INSUFFICIENT FOR HER RESEARCH PURPOSES. AI'E OBSERVATIONS ABOUT THE CURRENT EDUCATION SYSTEM WORLDWIDE ARE CURRENTLY BEING CONSTRUCTED INTO A BUSINESS PLAN FOR ATARAXIA: A SCHOOL OF THE FUTURE. AI GRADUATED EARLY AT 16 AT KHS, MAUI-A NON-TRADITIONAL EDUCATIONAL SYSTEM. AI WAS AT THAT TIME COMPLETING HER POETRY AND ART PROJECT FOR PUBLICATION, BUT PUT IT ON HOLD TO PURSUE A BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE DEGREE FROM VICTORIA UNIVERSITY IN NEW ZEALAND AWAY FROM THE HIPOCRACY AND MATERIALISM OF AMERICA, WHERE SHE SWITCHED HER MAJOR 4 TIMES AS SHE FOUND THE MATERIAL UNCHALLENGING AND THE UNIVERSITY ENVIRONMENT UNSTIMULATING AND MEDIOCRE. IT WAS HYPOTHESIZED BY AI'S PARENTS THAT SHE SHOULD PURSUE IVY LEAGUE SCHOOLS SUCH AS HARVARD, YALE, PRINCETON IN HOPES OF FINDING A PLACE OF HIGHER STIMULATION, BUT THE RIGID DICTATORSHIP, ARISTOCRATIC MENTALITY OF ATTENDING STUDENTS, AND OVER-EXCESSIVE FOCUS ON ACADEMIC TRADITION DISGUSTED AI. ONE OF AI'S PROJECTS-ATARAXIA IS DEVELOPING A SCHOOLING SYSTEM FOR WHICH ENCOURAGES INDIVIDUAL GROWTH. AI BELIEVES THAT THE TERM "GIFTED" AND "GENIUS" IS A LABEL, AND THAT ALL PEOPLE EVERYWHERE ARE EQUAL IN THEIR CAPABILITIES, AND ALL HAVE UNLIMITED ABILITIES AND TALENTS WHICH USUALLY IF LEFT TO TRADITIONAL SCHOOLING SYSTEMS, AND TRADITIONAL LIFE CAREER PATHWAYS, WILL NEVER BE DISCOVERED. AI HOPES TO ESTABLISH A SCHOOLING SYSTEM IN THE FUTURE WHICH REFLECTS THIS MENTALITY. AI HAS BEEN IN SEARCH FOR OTHERS SUCH AS HERSELF IN THE HOPES OF GROWTH AND STIMULATION. SHE HAS MET NOBODY PRIOR TO HELMUT MARKO, HER CURRENT PARTNER, WHO HAS A SIMILAR APPROACH TO UNLEASHING ABILITIES TO EXCELL IN ALL AREAS. SHE HAS FOUND SOME SOLACE IN GROUPS SUCH AS MENSA-FOR PEOPLE WITH A "GENIUS" I.Q, AND USES MYSPACE. COM, HI5.COM, WWW.ABOVETOPSECRET.COM, AND OTHER "ADVANCED/GIFTED/TALENTED" WEBSITE FORUMS TO SEEK THOSE LIKE HER. IE'S IQ WAS 149 IN 2003, IT HAS GONE UP MANY POINTS SINCE THEN AND IT HAS NOW SURPASSED THE LIMIT OF 150 POINTS, THE SCALE USUALLY MEASURED BY STANDARDIZED IQ TESTS. AI HAS BEEN CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED BY A WIDE RANGE OF PHYSICIANS WITH BIPOLAR DISORDER, OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDER, DEPRESSION, ADHD, SCHIZOPHRENIA, HYPOMANIA, AND A COMBINATION OF SEVERAL SIMULTANEOUSLY. EVERY PHYSICIAN CONCLUDED A DIFFERENT ANALYSIS FROM HEALTHY TO "ILL", ADDING EVIDENCE TO ONE OF AI'S SCIENTIFIC THEORIES ON MENTAL ILLNESS AND PERCEPTION, THAT MENTAL ILLNESS IS A FALSE LABEL, FURTHERMORE THAT IT IS NON-EXISTANT. THE WESTERN WORLD'S REBUTTAL WAS SIMPLY THAT "DIAGNOSED PATIENTS EXHIBIT EXCESSIVE SIGNS OF DENIAL". AI HAS SHOWN THAT THERE ARE UNTAPPED MENTAL ABILITIES OF THE MIND WHICH HAVE NO SUPERNATURAL OR INACCESSIBLE QUALITIES, WHICH HAVE BEEN CONTINUALLY REGARDED BY THE WESTERN MEDICAL WORLD AS ABNORMAL, AND NEEDING CURE. AI, UPON QUESTIONING MEMBERS OF THE POPULACE WHO CONSIDER THEMSELVES "NORMAL", HAS BEEN GIVEN RESPONSES SUCH AS WE LIVE IN THE "REAL WORLD". IE HAS SHOWN HER TALENTS AND ABILITIES THROUGH AREAS RANGING FROM ACADEMICS TO ATHLETIC TO THE ARTS TO THE UNEXLAINABLE. AI BELIEVES THAT LABELS SUCH AS IDENTITY, NAME, STATUS, ACHIEVEMENTS, PHYSICAL APPEARANCE, FRIEND CIRCLES, CAREER, AND OTHER SUCH LABELS EQUATED WITH TRADITIONALIZED HUMAN LIFE ARE LIMITING TO ANY INDIVIDUAL BEING, WHETHER IT BE A FLOWER AN ALIEN A SOLAR SYSTEM OR A HUMAN. THE "MULTI-GENRE" UNFORMATTED TEXT ON THIS PAGE LISTS SOME OF HER PREVIOUS PROJECTS. IE IS CURRENTLY WORKING ON SEVERAL PROJECTS, ONE OF WHICH IS THE COMPLETION OF HER MULTI-GENRE NOVELLA, A TALE OF HOW A NORMAL HUMAN BEING BECOMES A SUPERHUMAN IN THE MEDIUM OF ART, POETRY, MATHEMATICS, MUSIC, WEBSITE, AND EVENTUALLY TELEVISION. PROJECT RELEASE DATE TBA.

WWW.BREAKFREE2BLOGSPOT.COM IS ONE OF AI'S WEBSITES, IT HAS WITHIN IT SOME OF HER POETRY, ARTWORKS, AND MISCELLANEOUS ESSAYS.

AI CAN BE FOUND ON THE WEB THROUGH

www.LilianaAlam.com
http://theanomalyinfinite.hi5.com
http://www.myspace.com/theanomalyinfinite
www.breakfree2energy.blogspot.com

EMAIL AI: nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com

AI TREASURES ALL THE INDIVIDUALS (AI HATES THE TERM "FANS") AI HAS KNOWN THROUGHOUT LIFE. AI BELIEVES THAT ALL BEINGS CAN HELP EACH OTHER REGARDLESS OF SUCH FACTORS AS AGE, RACE, SOCIAL STATUS, CAREER, ETC. AND THEREFORE IS OPEN TO RECEIVE SUGGESTIONS, COMMENTS, HELP, AND TO GIVE HELP FROM OTHER BEINGS. AI TRIES TO PERSONALLY READ & ANSWER AS MANY EMAILS AS POSSIBLE, HOWEVER DUE TO THE LARGE AMOUNT OF EMAILS AI RECEIVES AND AI'S VERY BUSY SCHEDULE, THE AI MAY NOT BE ABLE TO RESPOND TO YOUR EMAIL. AI WILL KEEP YOUR EMAIL ON FILE.

Yes!

Back in LA after Holidays!

WeeeeWaaaa!!!

This is not based on any specific event, but a general note about LIFE:

"Treat life as a curve ball. Instead of being a Wall and Stopping the bullets.....
Morph yourself to become One with them so that they cannot hurt you."


In the words of the great Helmut Marko

"Ride the Wave. Don't Drown in It."

FUCCCCK!!!!!! DAMN!!!! WOWWWW. LIFE IS PHENOMENAL. I feel so FREE. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYBODY. I hope that its going Fantastic for you.

I FEEL SO FUCKING FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like the chains have been ripped off me.

and I jumped the furthest crevice, just to see if I would die. And I didn't die.

I do this shit all the time, push myself like that. And , every time, I'm just so AMAZED, with LIFE, with POWER, with the GREATNESS of the MIND and of the SPIRIT.


BLAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes I know this is pretty cryptic. Let's just say what happened tonight was FREEING.